headstart

I bet many of you out there are enjoying your holidays outside now. Apparently my school organised some headstart event for sec3s in order for us to prepare for sec4s. Trying to focus too much during lessons isn't helping. 

At all.

Headstart programme's on the second day now, around 1 more week to go. Trying to focus for every lessson with 1hour each is really a tough task, given that I get distracted every now and then. I had to listen...... And collapse after every lesson. 

Well. You can say that it's some torture and somehow I do agree with it. Don't you think Singaporeans' point of living is to make sure we have enough money to live, and not have enough fun during our teenage years?

what's the point of living then?

And to sum up the fire with some oil, I have around 15 extra choir practices when other CCAs have none, and I really don't see the point in having CCAs like this often. 9hours of singing in a week, pardon me?? What's more it's what they call holidays. Any more logic to add?

Stress has all been built up even before I got up to secondary 4. Main reason was my EOY results. That was because I lost all hopes for studying during term 2, after I fared quite well during term 1. I saw no point in learning what we don't have to know when we work, like ' erm I would like to order (9log3 x lg10^21 + In e) bags of muffins ' like why do we need to know these. Yes I understand this is an important factor for engineering courses etc. It all links back to the work and pay and living shit. 

Really hope this doesn't continue any further. Really, sometimes I just feel like escaping from this harsh reality and go to somewhere where I would not have to think so much about what I will be or so. 

Just hope everything goes smoothly after this December holidays. I'm tired.